outsider?

a group of loser-looking individuals perform strange to describe activities in a gated empty room. these maneuvers are supposed to wake up a musical instinct in your child. you are a parent who wants the best for your child, so you are willing to try it out. it does not matter how weird it looks to you. you hope your child sees it differently. you don’t want to give up something that’s widely accepted as educational for the children. you give the money in, you give the child in. yes, let’s do that, let’s try it out. you already gave up so many initiatives on yourself, you are bound to make up for it with your children.

i take dance classes, i take chess classes, i take fencing classes, i take sawing classes, i take jewish dance classes, i go swimming, i take english classes, i take classes at a gym, i take yoga classes. i feel foreign everywhere i do. it does not matter if i like the class, it does not matter if i do well. it does not matter how long i’ve been attending the class. it does not matter if i get to socialize with anyone in the class. i don’t belong there. i am an outsider.