truthful

please, tell me the truth, - you ask me. i look at you and i am scared. i look at you and i want to tell you the truth. i just don’t know what it means. i want to be a good person.  i want to tell you what you are asking. i don’t know how to do that. i just don’t know. i can try to please you. i can take my best guess. i can tell you what i think you want the truth to be. i will have to do that. i am going to see the look of reassurance in your eyes.  you will feel comforted. you will feel secured.  you will feel good.  i will feel sad. i will feel worthless. i will feel confused.