dream job

i sent my resume to the circus. i got laid off, and i was whining about having gray unpurposeful job for a while there, so it was my chance to start over.

what do i really want is to be a travel agent. that’s what i do most of the time anyway, and i love it and i am good at it. the problem is – it does not pay much money unless you are so good that you get a clientele and your own agency. but ok, i am willing to start as a plain low level nobody and work my way in the business. but the economy is shit, nobody is hiring, and the very few posts for travel agent positions require sabre and job experience. come on, it would probably take me 1 hour to gain that, but nevertheless, back to square one – no experience means no job. and am i really willing to work so hard to get this job that would pay 30% of what i am used to?

so let’s try something else – how about getting a job writing the same boring code but querying some artsy data, not the $ amounts.. nobody is hiring code writers, that’s how i lost the job in the first place, remember? i am sending my resume to all these companies that ask for something i can do, and i get almost no responses, and the ones i do get are from the same giant life-wasting-in-the-cubical monstrosities i am trying to escape. “a message from joe karcich – do you attend two huddle meetings a month? – if not, ask your supervisor” – what the hell is that?

so how about i stop doing the part of code writing i hate and learn deeper the part i actually like, how about i get certified in that part and then search for jobs doing this specific thing? how about i keep sending and sending my resume until somewhat of an interesting firm wants to hire me? maybe it will work out ?