i am an introvert. my inner world is extremely rich. my outer life is overwhelmingly boring. why is there such a gap? why am i missing on all the fun? does everything around me seem so flat because it is so pitiful comparing to what i want it to be? is it really just so plainly uninteresting? my life is so boring, i want to avoid living it. i hurry up home on the day of my favorite show instead of going out with my so called friends because i rather live the lives of my favorite characters. i can’t wait the social gathering at work to end so i can read my book. i don’t see how it can ever change. i don’t see what i can do to help it.
я интроверт. мой внутренний мир несказанно богат. моя внешняя жизнь невероятно скучна. отчего такая разница? почему все веселье обходит меня стороной? все вокруг выглядит таким серым, потому что это такое жалкое подобие того, что мне бы хотелось иметь? это действительно просто так прозаично неинтересно? моя жизнь так скучна, я хочу избежать ее жить. я спешу домой в день моего любимого кино вместо того, чтобы пойти куда-то с так называемыми друзьями, потому что мне интересней жить жизнь моих любимых персонажей. я не могу дождаться конца банкета на работе, чтобы продолжить читать мою книгу. я не вижу, как это когда-нибудь может изменится. я не вижу, что я могу сделать этому помочь.
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Is this necessarily bad?
bad?
"i don’t see how it can ever change. i don’t see what i can do to help it."
well, why would it have to?
mostly rhetorical
good post!
hope b is feeling better =(
the character seems to be unhappy with it
lol, the character needs to read fountainhead
I have to start reading that! I will, I promise!!! Does the "character" want to change it? Herein lies the question.
the character obviously wants to change it according to the post. the character just does not know how. once the character reads suggested literature (or experiences something else, etc) the character would not be the character as portrayed in this post.
it would still be the same character, just effected in some way...either positively, negatively, inwardly, outwardly, or not at all. People change their behavior all the time, but that doesn't change who they are.
exactly, and when he is effected in some way, he can't think the same thoughts as before that effect but he can remember them and their feel
Well, yes that is true. Unless you change your behavior whilst still remaining the same person inside, those doing something not natural to you, just to force some kind of reality that you think is "good" or "right" to exist. So you would think the same thoughts, only your key conflict will now be different. Not, why am I not doing this that and the other, but rather, why am I doing everything I am supposed to, and everything is still wrong.
Does that make any sense? I think I am starting to confused myself.
=)
Wow my grammer really sucked in that last post. I think I need to get some coffee.
time to end comments for this one;)
It is ok to be this way. I am the same, and don't want to be changed; I hate boring hangouts, sometimes it is better of to be along with your beautiful mind. Yesterday I went to a bar for drinks with my colleagues for Christmas party; what a waist of time! Irina
Just reading this post again bc the topic came up with some friends of mine, in conversation.
I am like this, often. I don't want to go do XYZ. But sometimes I want to want to.
At the same time, I don't want to change. Maybe I am missing out on something, but maybe they're missing out on something too.
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