interaction

you don’t mind being weird. you are fine to be considered odd and maybe somewhat eccentric. it does not bother you, quite the opposite. it proves to you, you are not a sheep. all is fine until there is an interaction involved; interaction with someone else who does not necessarily want to be considered that different. it is possible, but you don’t know it. it bothers you to cause a discomfort to this person by association with you. it bothers you to be your real self around this person because your action towards your new object of affection may cause others to change their views of this person. you mutate your real self.